And now the real excitement begins. I’ve just received an e-mail that I’ve been placed with Flax PR! I’m so excited and nervous… but mostly excited. I can’t wait to see what this summer fully has in store for me! This PR firm seems like the perfect placement for me, and I really hope that I…
Today, I resolution to stop dressing like a bum and start wearing the things that I actually want to wear. Start being daring and stop caring about if this makes me “look hot”. I’m going to stop dressing for everyone else, and start dressing for myself.
And it’s about damn time.
So I figure that the best way to tell a story is to start from the very beginning… and, well, applying for my visa to study/work in the UK is about the most appropriate beginning I can think of.
Today, I went to Atlanta to get my biometrics scanned in order to be approved for my visa to…
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This is my new blog that I’ll be using once I move to London in June to document all of my experiences with my internship and classes. I’m required to post daily as part of my class grade, so don’t worry; I’ll actually be posting on this one. I’m going to try to start posting now some things about the preparation process…. And by now, I mean after finals. Maybe before. Who knows.
But yeah, point of the story? Follow it. It’ll be one of my few links to America while I’m gone.
I have been awake for 45 hours straight. I just love having three tests in two days. Oh well. It’s my own fault.
And I don’t think that a lot of my insomnia comes from my studying.
Things are changing. I’m changing. I’m growing up. I want something different, and new and I want to find someone that appreciates and loves me for all of my wacky and unattractive quirks that I don’t feel like I have to fight the cosmos to hold on to.
I’m tired of fighting. It’s exhausting.
Especially when
I’m the
OnlY one.
Queue the knockout upper cut that literally makes you flip backward and land on your stomach.
I have one year left of college. ONE YEAR. And then what?
I’m ready to get going, but I’m not quite ready to leave.
My problem is that I can’t let go of anything. I like to beat the dead horse until it’s dust. It’s not healthy. It’s not what I should do.
I need help moving on. I need to remember what it’s like to actually be myself and do things that I enjoy doing
and to just let go. I’m worrying myself sick.
Worrying myself awake.
Worrying myself
Worrying.
Someone hand me my glasses, because hindsight is always 20/20 my friends.
From now on, my foresight is going to be 20/18
Seeing things clearly. No more romanticism of reality to create a better “story”.
I’ve always heard that your moment of disillusionment will completely change you and accelerate your journey to the path of righteousness.
I’m not even stretching that high.
My goal is to just not be so wrong. If I’m less wrong, then I’m bound to stumble on the right answer
view
thought
truth
……more often than I have been.
Destiny… it’s Anna-Marie. Nice to finally get acquainted.